2:55 AM

: Do you like smoking?

: What? Of course not. It's disgusting.

: Then why do you do it?

: Well... there's no good reason, I guess.
           I do it so that I can be around you.
  I guess it's normal to hurt yourself
           for the people you love.

: I didn't want you to love me.

: I didn't want to love you.
       Not really my choice, okay?
...and mostly, I guess, because
             I hate myself.

What bout you? Why do you smoke?

: Because,
         I hate myself
and because
         I hurt the people I love,      break them
     and I deserve cancer
                                          if anything at all.

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I write so many broken love stories I feel like punching myself